hey gerls...had fun at the beach..freaking tired man today... and the bloody fuck is that i have to werk full shift tomorrow!!! argh!!
hafiz called me today...after hearing his voice...i kinda miss him....put aside all the SMALL problems...i really miss him at times... i never said "i love you" so many times to a guy before! he's sweet... that's for sure... i so...cannot hear any of my ex's voice..coz i just tink of the past...n then i tink..."why did we break up?" haiz.... well..kalau da tak jodoh, tak jodoh...nak buat aper lagi? {if it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be...what else can we do?}
fuck!i need to cry...if i dnt cry anytime soon, i'll just lose it one of these days n i wnt be able to control myself...STRESS!!!!! i noe tt ppl are telling me to stop thinking of tt m!@#$%^&*...bt...it's hard... i really love him..{sorie hafiz, bt it's true...} n now eventhough there are so...many guys around...i just dont think i'm ready.. the scars are too deep.. it's like i'm falling into a neverending hole... and i keep banging against the sides... making the wounds deeper n deeper... i need help... but where can i get it? at the rate i'm going..i think i'll end up depending on nicotine for the rest of my life!!! {that's nt so bad actually! haha!}
i tink i need a shrink!! hahahahahahahhahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!
peace out............
11:25 pm
