Thursday, August 21, 2003

i'm having problems wit ma blog....argh!!!!

1:15 am


Wednesday, August 20, 2003

Schizotypal
Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.

Borderline
Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

Dependent
Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. They often remain in abusive relationships. They are overly sensitive to disapproval. They often feel helpless and depressed.


hmm.....interesting don't u tink??


1:25 am


Tuesday, August 19, 2003

well, well...another day has gone by...yeay! one less day... i miss him...buti think i'm starting to get on wit it...u noe wat i mean? shah has msg me...yet again... he's weird. that police officer...haha!! my boyfriend is in jail n my friend is a police officer...ironic. Well, that's life aint it? haha!! weird! i tink tt i'm really,really annoying... i dnt see how u ppl can tolerate me... hmm...for all i noe, u guys r just acting like u like me but actually , u hate me...or u just cant tolerate ma attitude...hmm....

paranoia.....

11:55 pm


harrow!! haiz...i miss ma Baby...T_T i'm finally gonna mail the letters tomorrow. at long last. i gotta mail it by this week at least...kecian dier, blom dpt surat... he might just tink tt i've forgotten to write to him. tt'll b the day! haha!! as if i'll ever forget my daRRRling! :) my dad keeps asking me silly questions. i asked him to help me buy stamps n he asked me y do i need so many stamps for. then, i asked him if there's more than one remand prison, n he asked me y i'm asking abt tt. i think he most probably tinks tt Ed went in! haha!!

12:44 am


Sunday, August 17, 2003

i don't get it!! we need money..I need money...sowats so wrong in getting a job tt pays well?? ok, so d place isn't exactly d kind tt my dad wld want me to work in... but hey!! it's a job ain't it?! n it'll get us some money...to pay bills...for school stuff...for "other" stuff...n for clothes!! I NEED CLOTHES!! argh!!!! can't he be more understanding...i'm just trying to help!! god damn it!!

8:56 pm


harroe!!! haiz...i miss him so much!! it's only been a week...how m i gonna survive another 6 mths,2 weeks n 3 days???? argh!!!! well, at least i noe he IS thinking of me... his friend called me to tell me his "number" n where his at so i can write to him....hehehe!!! he thinks of me!! yeay2!!

well, today had re-tests...i didnt go...haiya....dunno wats gonna happen to me...i really need to focus....keep studying...dun stop....i need MOTIVATION!!! help!! give me motivation..study to pass..study to get a good job.....to support my daddy....to show "those people" i CAN do it.....yes!! i have my motivation...but i still need u peeps to push me...PLEASE!! n tell me to STOP EATING!!! i HAVE to!!! PLEASE!!! DO NOT LET ME EAT!!! AT ALL!!! NOTHING SHOULD BE CONSUMED BUT WATER!!


12:53 am