Saturday, December 17, 2005
* i'm in my depression mood again... listening to "Black Eyed".. [ i'm forever black eyed.. i'm a product of a broken home... ] *
How do you expect me to respect you wen you show no respect for anyone in this house? how am i suppose to make things better when all you ever do is make things worse? i don't understand what it is you want me to do.. what do you want from me? what wrong have i done? was it the fact that i was born that has made you regret what you've done? well, you should have thought of dat before coming into my world... i don't understand how anyone can say you love someone and don't mean it.. how can someone think that it's ok to hurt others?? i din't ask for any of this.. why can't you people just stop it??? JUST STOP IT!!!!! Stop driving me insane.. PLEASE... i don't have anyone... all i have is him here... why can't you just let me be happy? stop all the acting.. if you don't like me, than make it be heard.. that way, everyone is happy and knows when to stay over... don't think that by shedding those tears, i'll believe you... i know you don't love me...none of you do...so stop all the acting, cos i can't take it anymore... GOD, please help me.... the hurt that i'm feeling now is unbearable.. i've been hurt too many times now.. i cnt keep taking it all in silence.. please help me....
7:50 pm
* Dinner and Dance *Well, last nite was my company's D&D... Was ok la... I was quite bored actually... i din really have anyone to chill with.. i'm new in the company so i dun really have a real friend.. so i jus sat in a corner and sank into the sofa... the fun i had was seein Meraj getting sabo-ed by the girls! haha! man, thank god he's such a good sport!after that, it got bored again... i'm sure ppl must hv tot i was a boring or an anti-social person last nite, but i felt really out of place last nite... daym... my friends last nite were my fags n my drink....i won a can of coke and 2 bars of soap.. wooPdeeDoo!
7:35 pm
