Tuesday, August 12, 2003

wow! yesterday i had a fight with nizam...wtf!! he was tellg me abt how ex-convicts n druggies will never change, even aft doing time! wat the hell is his problem?? it's ppl like him, ppl hu dnt give these ex-convicts/druggies a second chance. a chance to start life anew. they just think tt once a criminal, always a criminal... if u dnt give them a chance to change... they'll never change. if everyone has the same mind set...of course it'll put them down n make dem think wats d point of changing if everyone wont see dem as changed person... look at aaron aziz,look at wat his doing now! it's b'cos ppl gave him a chance to change, n he had great support from everyone around him! so nizam, r u gonna see aaron aziz as one of those ppl hu will never change??? well he has hasn't he?? n so can others!! if ppl stop thinking the same way u do...it will happen! just b'cos u WERE a cop n u used to handle this kinda ppl, doesn't give u the right to judge everyone! not everyone is alike u noe! ppl most prob go back to their old self due to lack of support...boredom..if u dnt help them, hu will?? they cant help themselves, they "help" themselves by taking drugs, doing crime...tt make them feel better, cos nobody n nothing else makes them feel better... but if can get to through to them, support them, help them, they WILL change...someday....not right away....but they will.....eventually...

haiz....it's hard u noe....wat he said really hurt me... not bcos of him..but b'cos of Ed too...y r ppl so mean? why cant they understand? do u think tt these ppl do wat they do bcos they enjoy it? they do it as it is d only thing tt gives them peace...their families dnt do tt..they just add to the pain...they cant get a job to keep them occupied cos ppl dnt want "ex-cons" working in their company...wtf?? so if ppl dnt give them a chance to work, how else can they earn a living?? OBVIOUSLY...they'll go back wat they did b4...

it all comes down to the public...it's how they look at them....

8:42 pm


Monday, August 11, 2003

how would u noe tt the person that u love now, will be the one u will love in ten years? won't u get bored of tt person?? i guess tt's y ppl get divorced. eventhough they look so good together n noe each other for a very long time. i guess life gets monotonous. you noe what the other one wants or needs, or is going to do. you have everyday normal routines. you don't change. your routines don't change...NOTHING CHANGES!!! but then again, there are couples who stay together for more than 50 years. then again, i doubt very much tt there were no affairs involved. do i want to end up with the same person for the rest of my life?? i know i won't fall OUT of love, but what about him?? will he want a younger woman{how much younger could HE want??}by the time i'd have given birth to our third child n i look 40 when i'm actually ONLY 35?? or what if i CAN'T have kids? will he still want me?

how can u trust someone so much?? you believe whatever they tell u, AND they know it! so...they take advantage! how is it tt u trust them, but THEY can't trust u?! tt's just one problem. what if you give them too much freedom? you let them do whatever they want as u trust them. and then what happens? they take advantage! or even worse, they think tt u dnt care about them as u let them be. why is life so.....complicated??

when u want something, u try ur very best to get it. once u've gotten it though, u treat it like something u can get easily. something u can find everyday, everywhere, anytime. why is the world full of ppl hu enjoy taking advantage of others? WHY?? when u give them a chance once, they'll think they'll think you'll give them another chance. and when u do give them another chance, they just want more! when will it STOP??

i always thought tt love is a wonderfull thing. little did i noe tt it is full of obstacles!{damn~}they just keep coming! when will it stop? WHY do they come? are they all here as a test from GOD?? WHY??? but my main question is, will we still love the sane person we love now in ten years time?? who noes! ditto!

8:02 pm