fasionably me. /

Thursday, December 22, 2005

* haiz.. misunderstanding... *

i got a shock of my life wen i got a tag on asking wad does my cousin have in her! haha! weird.. it's been such a long time since that entry...

anyways, to clear d air in case some ppl get d wrong idea, i meant it as a compliment.. and wat i meant was she, or they actually, have alot of spunk in them and i salute them for that.

when you're in a family that constantly gossips about other family members, you have to have that spunk to survive.. you know that it's kinda sick to know that your family is so full of crap, and to find someone else who shares the same sentiments as me and are on the same wave length as me is such a relief. . no wonder most of the time when we meet we can chat.. though i sometimes feel that they may perceive me to be like the rest..

i cant stand gossips and i cant stand they way one's own family can talk about another member of the family with so much angst wen they aren't present, and wen they're face-to-face act like they've never said anything bad..

wat's the point of being religous when the things they do are what the religion is against? sometimes i wish that people wont think that i'm like them.. how can i be like them wen i have no real blood ties with them?

3:57 pm

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

* Life's a bitch *

I've never felt so much hatred for a person as i do now.. after 20 years of knowing him, he treats me this way.. after all the shit i did for him, after all the help i offered, this is the thanks i get? i don't know him anymore.. from this day on, i no longer have a brother..

i have decided that i will not take him as my flesh n blood anymore.. i've had enough of all his shit.. i don't care if he gets caught today, or tommorow, or the day after.. i don't give a damn! after all the help i gave him.. after all those days when i sacrificed my meals for his sake, he isn't grateful for all of that..

he thinks that since i got a job i've become big headed! what the hell is he talkin about?? we used to be so close, but because of his ungratefullness, his shallow mentality, his arrogance, i no longer regard him as a brother... to me, he is dead...

i can never forgive such ungratefullness...

11:11 pm