Tuesday, June 26, 2007

..:: sha balik dulu eh? nanti masak kan asam pedas untuk abang ye. ::..

heh.

today work was hectic. sheesh. they didn't manage to take down the chair rack so it's postponed till thursday. was so worried i wouldn't be able to leave work on time to meet khai.

met khai at about 6.40pm. he looked so good today. he had to attend a conference and give a presentation so he was all dressed up. so handsome! haha. and, when i met him, i was like "huh?". suddenly, he passed me this wooden box. at first i thought it had those voodoo dolls in it cos the box looks like a coffin. haha. then i opened it and there was a card and another smaller box! in it....




the first time i got a gift from him in ages!! so sweet right! our annimonthsery gift. so sweet. eventhough it's like 6 days late, i was so happy.

yeay!

I LOVE IT!!

thank you dear!!

tonight i will sleep a happy girl. heh.

10:35 pm


..:: 8 days...8 more days... 8 freaking days!! ::..



ok..minus friday and saturday...



6 freaking days... till i head to THAILAND!!! weee!!!! this is where i'll be chilling for the next week people!!










now do you know why i can't wait to go?!? who can resist?? just relaxing and chilling by the beach. doin nothing but bummin and spending time with the loved one. [and andrea as well! heh.]


i can't wait! i just hope that it is really as good as the pictures i see! hahaha. shux. i haven't pack yet. nyeh. will be getting my bag from drea tmr. wee! thanks hunz!!


khai hasn't packed yet either. he doesn't know what to bring! haha! so cute kan! and he's not gonna sleep the night before...firstly, so that he can sleep on the plane. secondly, cos he's afraid he may oversleep! haha. i dun think i'll sleep either. will be TOO excited. hahaha.


i'm gonna buy my swimsuit this weekend. i already found a nice decent one. one where i won't end up being stared at for the WRONG reasons! hahaha. [is there even a RIGHT reason??]


anyways...enough about that... my lovely sister called me up today and told me the best news ever! she got the job she wanted!! WEEE!!! so happy for her! at last she gets what she deserves! the company she's working for now sux big time. no bonus. always a delay in salary. no freaking increment even after FIVE years of working there. promoted to supervisor but increment only FIFTY freaking dollars!! watdefaq right!! dunno why she waited so long before leaving. haha.


i'm really happy for her. finally her life is falling back in place. she got nadia. she got a new [BETTER] job. she got HIM out of her life! [finally, after 3 years of FIGHTING!!] i hope everything goes well for her! and little nadia!!


i love you sis. and i love lil nadia too! i wish she were here with us. please bring her back to singapore soon!!!! i miss my niece!! nyeh.


oh ya, did i mention i love you? *hugs*


mr k is fetching me from work tomorrow! yeayness! he's such a lucky farker. got leave from now till the 11th! cheebay rite?!? and here i hafta work till next tuesday. got stocktake somemore can! bleargh.


ok..so..yeah...


was thinking of uncle hafil yesterday. i really miss him. i know that now he is in a better place. not suffering. and in peace.


i hate cancer.


why haven't they come up with the cure yet? why didn't they come up with all those better medication earlier..er..like maybe 14 years ago!! pfft.


what's so ironic. the doctor that helped my mom, died of cancer too a few years later......


cancer. we need to do something about it.


my mom had breast cancer. therefore making me and sis have a higher chance of getting it.


my mom then had colon cancer. the reason why papa always tells me to stop eating so much chilli.


my mom. she is my everything. and she will always be remembered. sometimes i wish she were here to see how well i've done in life. how happy i am now. how i've found someone really special. but i know, eventhough she's not here in the flesh...she is here in spirit.


i know i haven't been the greatest daughter. but i try my best to make you proud. i should visit you more often. there are no excuses. i'm sorry. sis loves you. and she misses you. syed does too, though he never shows it. papa misses you too. all of us miss you dearly. and all of us will carry a little bit of you in our hearts wherever we go.


haiz. thailand always reminds me of her. she made us stand in the blistering heat for God knows how long just so she can do her shopping! at least i think it was shopping. i still can't remember why in the world we went to thailand on that day. haha.


to all those who still have both your parents - cherish them. you never know when will be their last goodbye.


cherish their voices each time they call your name.


cherish their touch each time you kiss their hand.


cherish their laughter each time you do tell a joke.


cherish their yells and screams each time you make them angry.


cherish the smile they give you each time you come home.


and for those who have lost your loved ones - they will always be close to your heart.


keep them close.


forgive them for leaving you.


remember their wishes.


and live their dreams.


my mother only wanted to be able to see her children get married. that was all she wanted. i know she will be able to see me get married. and she will bless the day for us.


i love you mummy.






12:40 am


Sunday, June 24, 2007

..:: happy birthday!!! ::..

i am actually very sleepy now.

today woke up at about 1.30pm. yes. 1.30PM. finally had my much needed sleep. felt so fresh when i woke up. immediately got ready to head to the hospital. went to see nenek. had my lunch first since i still had time. papa was supposed to send me there but in the end he gave me taxi money saying the cab fare would cost just as much as him goin in and out of the carpark. haha. so i got $50!! haha. he asked me to give him back the change when i come home. as if that EVER happens. heh.

cab fare to nuh from home was $7.

i bought nenek flowers, $33.

i bought myself chocolates, $2.

hehe. so by right, i should give him back $8 right...haha. he never saw it. bleargh!

anyway, went to see nenek. she looks so sad. i can't imagine how she must feel losing a leg. though she is old [her estimated age is 80++], she's still active. walkin around the house on her own [but with the help of a walker]. she could do most of her stuff on her own. ever since the leg injury, she kinda got restricted but could still walk around. but she couldn't sleep cos her leg will hurt real bad and she'd start to cry. you see, she has diabetes. as a result, the injury which many had thought to be just a minor one turned out to be gangrene. thus the need for amputation. now she has so many thoughts running through her mind.

when khai's uncle asked what was she thinking about, the first thing she said was "who's going to take care of me now". how sad is that? not only that, she can't [and won't] eat cos she feels very nauseous. she just took half a spoonful of porridge and she couldn't keep it down. in the end she only had 1 slice of honeydew. and the pain from the surgery is getting to her now. gosh. it was so sad to see her in that state. she used to laugh whenever anyone told a joke. she could even tell US jokes. now, she just sits there and drifts in and out of sleep. she even started asking why did THIS have to happen to her. gosh. that was really heart-breaking.

brought back so many memories of when my mom was sick and found out she didn't have much time left.....

as most of you know me and dayah have not been on talking terms for quite a while now. well, i am happy to say that we have finally started talking. yeayness. i really missed talking to her. honestly, from the heart. i'm glad that it's all over. it was a little awkward at first, but after a while we were back to normal. or at least i thought so. just hope that she was just as happy as i was. heh. *you will always be the little sister i wish i had. even when we're bitchy.*

at about 7+pm, papa came to fetch me. had a dinner with the aunts and cousins. celebrated aunty josephine's 59th birthday! got to meet up with all my cousins again!! the highlight of it all!! we had dinner at this seafood place at telok blangah. i think the name was Gillman's seafood something-something. haha. we so got lost on the way there. i told my dad we had to u-turn at labrador park and turn left after the SP sub-station. my dad, so clever make u-turn at keppel club. haha. he kept thinking that was labrador park. we went round THREE freaking times. and there was a jam so he was super grouchy! haha. finally called martin and told him we were lost, he told us we supposed to make a u-turn after labrador park at alexandra road. duh. then my dad realised that he was turning at the wrong place. doink.

the food there was alright la. not really THAT fantastic. east coast seafood is much better. i didn't eat much. too lazy to attack the crabs. only had ONE prawn. wasn't satisfied. haha. but i really had good fun with my lovely cousin Mel. wee!! i LOVE her so much!! and it wouldn't be a family gathering without martin making fun of me! haha. such an arse he is! but what was great was seeing that selvan and lynette are much better now and selvan actually served her some of the dishes. that was great. so good to see them back to normal again. selvan is also another arse. sheesh.

jeremy. haha. didn't even know that i quit my previous job! haha. ketinggalan zaman! nyeh. as usual, conversations with him are incredibly serious. haha. we always talk about work, marriage, the latest news and..well...you know la what i mean.. but i always love talking to him.

I LOVE MY COUSINS!!

oh, and martin's kids. feel like slapping all of them. so cute!! can't stand that matthew. talk and talk and talk non-stop about god knows what. my dad was so entertained! haha. and si max. gosh. he is such a sweety-pie. adorable. geram aku. and megan. she cries for like 2 minutes then goes back to sleep. wow. girls are so different.

after dinner papa wanted to buy everyone coffee so we headed to china square. when we reached there, realized the stall is no longer there. hahaha. so we headed to lau pa sat. and since i was still hungry, i ordered satay. haha. 40 sticks ok!! but i only had like 10? i think so. so don't fall off your seat just yet ok. i'm not THAT gelojoh. pfft.

wow. i really had a good time with my family. i love them all. especially my sMeLly. heh.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY JOPIE!!! [in advance!]

mel...you wait ah..eventhough we celebrated today as well, your birthday is only next, NEXT week!! i'll get you something from BKK orite?

and to end this off...a little something i did while i was bored last night.

goodnight!!!

12:44 am