Saturday, May 10, 2003

{there will never come a day..you will ever hear me say....that i want...or need to live without....you...
i wanne give my all.....
baby just hold me.....simply control me...because your arms..they keep away the lonely...
when i look into your eyes....then i realize...all i need is you in my life....all i need is you in my life....
'cos i never felt this way about loving...no...
never felt so...good...baby
never felt this way and feeling so....good....}

did you forget all the times we spent together..all the words we said to each other...all the promises..all the things we did..all the times we were there for each other..all the times i was there for you...why did you change...? why do you have to leave me when i need you the most... i was always there to comfort you...where were you when i needed you..? i will never stop loving you... i will never forget you... that's the worst part of it all... i can never move on...eventhough i may have seem to... you were my first... and my feelings for you will never change... if only you knew how much i actually love you... how much i actually care for you.... how much i worry about you everyday and night.... i love you... why do you have to put me through all this shit... WHY??? even after all the things you did to me.. all the times you left me all alone... i always belived you were thinking of me and missing me as much as i miss you... i do.. you were always there when i needed someone to listen to my problems... to give me advice... how can someone so kind and warm, be so cruel and cold too... when you were lonely.. i was there... when i was down...you cheered me up.... you did so many things for me.. you took care of me... you took care of Ed... how can you do this to me??? what did i do to you to deserve such punishment... you said you would be there for me always... i will always love you......


{i noe you girls may think i'm stupid to forgive him... but i really love him.... please try and understand... he was all i had... i have no one else rite now... you girls i noe will be there for me... but it's different.... i love you girls too... muacks...}

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