..:: thailand? ::..
so we went out yesterday, andrea matthew, him and me. met up at sunny holidays to pay for our tickets. yeay. finally it's confirmed that we ARE going! woopee!!
went to komalas at tekka for dinner. then headed to mustafa for shopping! spent freaking $75!! man...i noticed that hypermarts are DANGEROUS!! i just keep grabbing stuff and end up paying a BOMB! crap. but it's alright. i got all the important stuff.
can't wait for the trip. need a break. just want to relax. no stress. no thinking of work. just pure bumming. yeay.
but i do have this weird feeling that i'm not going to enjoy it that much. i just know that something is gonna happen there....
"i love the way you love...but i hate the way, i'm supposed to love you back"yes, trouble is brewing in the love department. i used to just wish we could get married NOW. yet,with the way things are going...i'm glad we aren't... i don't think i want to. i dun think that i can get what i want if i had gotten married. i suddenly realize who i am with. and what i need and want out of a relationship.
it really hurts to see history repeat itself. suddenly i feel like everything that i've given wasn't worth it. no gratitude at all. and money is the cause of it all. i guess when the elders talk, it is wise to pay attention. as much as we would like to say that money isn't everything, it is. and it's a BIG everything.
and mom's are always right. you can't just live on love and happiness.
and it's so sad to see how people change when money is involved. i'm surprised by how i find money so important to me. but, i worked for it and therefore i treasure it. but i guess some people just don't see it. i'm not a selfish person. but i know when to give, and when to say no. but i guess to some that's being selfish.
i admit i was harsh. i just lost my patience. i've been quite patient with you. but you're reminding me of someone whom which i've forgotten... and never thought that you could be the same. taking is easy. and the more you take, the more you want.
i'm not going to beat around the bush. i've given, and now i want some back. yes, it's the modern era where women don't need to depend on men. but does that mean that men can then depend on women? does that mean that we do not have the right to be pampered? does that mean we can't take back what's ours? i expect what's mine back because it is my hard earned money which i have been saving for the wedding that will never happen. is that so wrong? is it so wrong to want what's mine?
yeah, i know.. you're the victim here. and i, the super villain.
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