things are falling into place now. we have started talking. and i'm taking things slowly. he needs to slow down too...

i read thru all my previous entries. way back from when i just started blogging, to when i was wit sham [and wan. haha.] and all the way to when i first knew khai. reading through all those entries made me realize how much he really loves me and that i should give him this chance. and also NOT to jump to conclusions all the time. heh. i can't help it. i guess it's in the blood. both my sister and i are alike in this way. i guess my mum was that way too. my sister really takes after my mum though. at least for me it's a little less of the dosage. haha.

anyways, i decided to give in. why? well, after talking to my mom i realized how patient he is. even after all the things i said to him.. he was still so sweet and patient and didn't even once yell or let his anger out on me. even though i really said a lot of mean things to him, all he said was "can we please stop fighting?"...

he didn't even lash back. well, except for the issue on the fishes [which i still can't believe actually happened!], he was really..NICE!

doesn't that just show how much he loves me?

i've been really mean and i guess it was due to all those pent up feelings i had. the lesson here is, you should always tell when somethings bugging you cos if you hold it long enough, one day you're just gonna blow up and that would be fatal [who would want to see spews of you all over the walls and floor rite?? hehe. ok. L.A.M.E.].

i guess this was one of God's BIGGEST test for us. we have gone thru plenty of them and we managed to pull through.. but this was the hardest test of all.. i really didn't know what was happening. i just kept pushing him away and kept picking on every little thing that he does wrong. and now i feel like a total idiot. haiz.

i must admit that i'm still a little sore.. but he has managed to soothe it so far...

he is really the one for me i guess. my mom told me that this is most prolly a test.. just before the parents come over...... i think she's right...

it's the stress of it all that caught up.

ok, enough about that... while reading my previous posts... i found this picture!!

this was after our first huge fight! haha. i got so pissed i cut bangs! and i did it cos i knew he didn't like it! hahaha. haiz... i miss my straight hair....

should i rebond again??

NO WAY!! i love my hair now! and if i ever want straight hair.. i can always go to the salon and iron my hair out.. hahah... hmmm..

I'm gonna pierce my tongue again!! WEEEE!!!!! i can't wait!!! i actually want to pierce my upper lip.. but my guy frens said it's not nice.. and john is extremely against it! haha. i'm still considering.. lol.

i may get both at once!!

what say you?? should i pierce my upper lip.. according to daya it's called the "monroe" piercing.. hmmmm.. comments?

and i want this!!