fasionably me. /

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

..:: if that's ok with you.. ::..

i feel so in love.. i dunno why.. hahaha. after hearing shayne wards song i think.. it gives such a lovey-dovey feeling.. to me that is.. it's like he's head over heals in love with this girl and would do anything for her.. as long as it's ok with her.. haha.. how sweet...

after listening to his song.. and finally finishing 'Plan B' by Emily Barr.. i felt loved.. weird aye? hahaha. ok, the lyrics of the songs keeps repeating itself but it's the sweetest thing a guy could say.. sheesh. i've gone all mushy brained...

reading 'Plan B' reminded me of a person i knew... it's amazing what some men can do.. in this book, he has a wife and son in london, and a girlfriend and dauhghter in brighton and later moves to france... he spends 3 days with his wife and son... then flies of to france to spend the rest of the week with his girlfriend/partner and daughter...

each partner later finds out and he ends up in hot soup! the story however was abt his partner, Emma...and how she pulled through..sounds too familiar for me..

dun get me wrong, it's not that i was in this situation.. hell no! it was someone dear to me who had to suffer that and only find out after 15 years of being together... men can be scum.. but not all of them... i guess it takes a lot of good instincts and GREAT luck to find THE perfect man!

the past few months had been the most horrendous months for khai and myself.. quarrels and misunderstandings.. it was the scariest few month we've had since we we've been together.. and i was the cause of most of it... women! hahah.

i can't remember ever feeling so paranoid, infuriated, confused and lost!! all at the same time mind you!! i practically picked a fight with him every minute we spoke! i have no idea wat got into me!!

after listening to shayne ward..i kept asking myself.."wouldn't it be nice to have a guy tell you all these things?"

then i realized that i had him. khai always said he like the natural look.. he din mind the way i looked most of the times [though now he's pissed cos of my hair...pfft.]...

i would often feel jealous when i see other couples hugging and holding hands while walking around town and wishing that could happen to me.. then i realize that it does..just not at the moment cos he's not around..

i feel like i'm really lucky to have a guy like khai.. though now he DOES need to do something about..well.. lets just leave it at that shall we..

every relationship has it's ups and downs right? so i guess it was just our down period...

not seeing him for so long has made it sorta OK for me.. and now that he's free.. it feel weird.. it used to be always me being alone and waiting for him to finish his shift to go out.. now.. it's like i can't wait for him to start work.. hahah! weird aye? i guess i just got used to it.. not having anyone around to make plans with and go out..

it was always work and family.. i din even go out with my friends unless it was for an occassion.. and now.. it's me that's working and him waiting to go out.. haiz..

i pray that this phase vanishes soon.. i really can't take all the quarelling.. [ yes, i know.. i'm 99.99% responsible for most of it! pfft. ] it's very tiring ok!

anyhoos, my arm has been hurting like hell... my mom massaged it on sunday and i was SCREAMING cos it hurt like hell.. then today it hurt again... i saw mom using that yucky plaster thingy on her foot.. so i tot i'd give it a go.. mom said it's not hot so i won't feel anything.. bluffer. it's freaking burning on my arm lah now!! i want to take it off.. but no one will help cos i'm supposed to leave it on till tomorrow morning.. hurhurhur...

help.

please.

help.