..:: if it's not meant to be...it's not meant to be.. ::..
everything happens for a reason....i just saw her on saturday...she seemed totally ok...
today, after i excitedly went through the list of things that remained unpacked... after i exchaged sms's with andrea about the trip...i got a call from khai... nenek was in critical condition. apparently there was more blood in her intestines than they expected. she had to go through surgery immediately.
khai was so upset. i could hear him holding back his tears. what really shook him was that nenek told him she won't be able to see him get married. even i wanted to cry after hearing that. she is really dear to him. to see him in this state just hurts me so. and knowing that nenek has to suffer hurts me even more.
and what i don't understand is how the doctor could have made a mistake. they already cleared the right side of her intestines..and they were already dressing her wound...then the doctor realized that the left side was bleeding as well.. thus she had to go under the knife a second time..
i dun understand... she seemed ok... she was so cheerful...
and now the doctor says that there's only a 50/50 chance of her pulling through... she's lost so much blood... i don't understand why didn't they check on her earlier when she was complaining about having pains in her low abdomen area...
i really pray that she gets better.... she's such a sweet old lady... i really do hope that she DOES get to see khai get married....
papa, mom and nani followed me to the hospital after work... we went in to see nenek...since only 2 people can go in at once, mom and nani went in to see her... i was too terrified... i never know how to react when it comes to seeing people who are sick... all those machines and beeping noises just scare me... i guess growing up with all those things were enough for me! and the weird thing about me is that i tend to laugh alot eventhough you're supposed to be serious or you know...sad... i just laugh... and i'm sorry if all of you felt offended..but it's just how i react in these kinda situations...[sorry.]
will go to the hospital again tomorrow after work....
and since i'm off on wednesday, i'll spend the day at the hospital with khai..
and about the thailand trip...i guess we were never meant to go... i realized this when i was contemplating on cancelling the trip... we had a huge fight the week we confirmed the trip..and we fought constantly week after week whenever we spoke about thailand... and now, finally we really can't go... i guess it really wasn't meant to be... and i'm sure it is a blessing in disguise...
things happen for a reason..fate works in a funny way...
Labels: life. fate. blessings. love.
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